Spiritually refreshed and emotionally drained!
Praise the Lord!
After an exhausting weekend of phone calls from people telling me that Bill had broken into their homes and businesses and stolen their things (to sell for drugs) he is in jail. He can harm no one else and he can not harm himself either. I spent all day yesterday after church at a realty company who we used to do work for, trying to help them catch him. This addiction and the demons that come with it have consumed him and he is not himself. It is a sickness that I don't understand and never will. I know that I am a smarter and more knowledgeable person after living through it. Sad to say, not only did I live through it, I came out victorious. My husband on the other hand, did not. If this is not rock bottom for him, I don't know what is. I am getting off of the train at this stop. I have prayed and wept and prayed and wept, and made the decision. I have stayed in the marriage because I love him, and I took a heavy stand against divorce. I still love him, abuse and drug addiction and pride have destroyed our marriage. For the boys' safety and my well being, I will move on, focusing on the Lord, loving Him, and showing the boys' that He is a true Father, and we must cling to Him.
So calling all moms for advice.
Please pray for my testimony and witnessing through all of this, I want to use all of this for His glory, not my own. God has seen me through this, alive, and I am thankful to Him and His faithfulness to me.
After an exhausting weekend of phone calls from people telling me that Bill had broken into their homes and businesses and stolen their things (to sell for drugs) he is in jail. He can harm no one else and he can not harm himself either. I spent all day yesterday after church at a realty company who we used to do work for, trying to help them catch him. This addiction and the demons that come with it have consumed him and he is not himself. It is a sickness that I don't understand and never will. I know that I am a smarter and more knowledgeable person after living through it. Sad to say, not only did I live through it, I came out victorious. My husband on the other hand, did not. If this is not rock bottom for him, I don't know what is. I am getting off of the train at this stop. I have prayed and wept and prayed and wept, and made the decision. I have stayed in the marriage because I love him, and I took a heavy stand against divorce. I still love him, abuse and drug addiction and pride have destroyed our marriage. For the boys' safety and my well being, I will move on, focusing on the Lord, loving Him, and showing the boys' that He is a true Father, and we must cling to Him.
So calling all moms for advice.
Please pray for my testimony and witnessing through all of this, I want to use all of this for His glory, not my own. God has seen me through this, alive, and I am thankful to Him and His faithfulness to me.
posted by Sarah at 7:02 AM
7 Comments:
Not a word of advice but a ton of love, prayers and cyber world support....the prayers are worth the most!!! He is not done with your story.....focus on Him and keep on keepin on......just like you said....praying b
God loves you, your children and your husband. Praying for you. I agree with Becky, the Lord is not done here...your story will continue.
His glory and righteousness will prevail.
I pray that you are finding comfort in God tonight. To say that you are "spiritually refreshed" is a true blessing to read, a testament to your strength and beautiful love for Christ.
Focus on your children. They need to know that life is good and not hopeless. Pray for guidance and the Lord will give it to you. Listen for the still small voice that he will answer with. Know that your Heavenly Father loves you, your children and even your husband.
As a mother, you know how you feel when your children disappoint you. Heavenly Father goes thru the same things. He loves, he hurts and he crys for us every day. Take a deep breath, pray and listen. Hopefully you have grown from all your trials. Take what you have learned and keep going. Let the Lord guide you.
I am thinking about you and wish you well. Good luck.
Oh man, I am so sorry. I didn't know he was running astray like that. Addiction is scary. You sound like such a sweet loving caring wife and mother. My heart breaks for you. But I am happy that you have the Lord there to comfort you. Gosh, you are not alone. God will never leave you alone. I am sorry that the addiction has ripped your family apart. Letting God take you by the hand and leading you into your future is sure to bring all you need. I will pray for you and your family!
Your testimony is already showing. I agree with your other commenters and send a big hug and prayers your way.
When you got off the train, did you see me, waiting to welcome you with open arms? Not every journey is a happy one, and this one is sad, indeed, but remember that there are many people out here who love and admire you.
My prayers are with you and your family. I know this is rough, but may the Lord give you strength and wisdom for what is His will for you and your children. I agree with so many who have posted here, the Lord is working some amazing things through these hardships. And while it is ever so hard now, it will surely all make sense when all is said and done.
And as an aside, you mmust think of you and your children, and what is best for you all to grow rather than be quenched.
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