At my weakest, He is strong!
I am feeling very vulnerable today, it is so hard to let my husband try to gain trust back. That means that I actually have to give him money and pray that he does not turn to drugs. For those who have never been in the life of an addict, you have no idea how overwhelming it is. I am literally sick to my stomach. I know that I should hit my knees and give this whole situation to the Lord, my pride will not let me. The Lord has provided a safe place for me to land while satan has tried to destory my safe place. I am human, I have doubt, worry, fear. Feeling very insecure today.
posted by Sarah at 2:15 PM
5 Comments:
I HAVE been there. I understand your fears with this. Trust is hard, and only you and the Lord know the right way to handle this. Blessings.....
Thanks for encouraging me...let me return the blessing.....praying big bold prayers for you to trust God in and around your husband....find that the more I try to do that the easier it is to let go of the disappointment in my husband....we're just broken fallible humans but HE....He is a good God!! thanks and praying for you...b
Have you been given "The Power of the Praying Wife" by Stormie Omartin - if not, now woudl be the time to invest 8 bucks and go get it. I have found it infinitely helpful. The truth is that God can protect your husband, but he still has free will. You can't control this, you can only be diligent in prayer. Sending up a prayer for youas well.
Sarah,
Yeah, trust in God, but RELY on random drug testing, LOL! Will he be required to be tested for drug use?
If he is on work-release, will he be earning his own money?
I can't imagine anyone would fault you for lack of trust, knowing what's happened in the past. Yes, God is a good God, but He also gifted you with common sense and the ability to think for yourself, and I suspect he expects you to use these gifts freely.
If your sons lied to you you'd punish them, and they'd have to earn your trust again.
If they cheated you, you'd punish them, and they'd have to work even harder to earn your trust.
If they engaged in this sort of behavior repeatedly, how much trust would you give them? Would you give them all of your trust, or would you require that they earn it back a little at a time?
I firmly believe that if someone abuses my trust more than once, they go back to square one, and they have to earn it back as if they were a stranger I'd just met.
Harsh? maybe so.
You have my prayers. One day at a time...God understands you are vulnerable and prideful too -- we all fear pain. "When my heart whispered, "Seek God," my whole being replied, "I'm seeking him!" Psalm 27:8
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