Friday, February 16, 2007

Sorry for my absence

I have spent much time in prayer, at work and with the kids over the past month. Due to the hard work that my partner, Alan, and I have put into the account, we have to date received triple the amount of work for our account at the company. Which is fabulous and could not be better timing as I am in need of things to keep my mind busy.
I met with a lawyer last Thursday about a divorce. I filled out all the necessary paperwork and gave it to her. She told me should would call in a few days to have me come back and sign the documents that were going to be filed with the court. Thursday was an emotionally draining day, the divorce is no doubt in the best interest of the children and myself, but no less, it is the hardest thing I have ever done. The lawyer called me Friday morning to tell me that the paperwork was ready to be signed. Just like that, just that quick.
I know that my hardest day has not arrived, and I pray for forgiveness and His grace through this process. I pray that my husband turns his life around, makes good choices, and above all can live a life for Christ. And my heart is still broken.
The boys have been told and they are OK. They know that the divorce is in no way their fault and has no bearing on my love for them or his love for them. And my heart is still broken.
I pray that God lead my footsteps down this very narrow path and bring me to His throne. Broken and battered is the way we approach it sometimes and I accept those conditions.
And my heart is still broken.

Please pray for Bill and I as we go down this road, that we put the well being of the boys ahead of our own wants and needs. Pray that our actions through this will be edifying to Christ in this worst situation that any can imagine in a marriage.
Pray that a broken heart be healed the way that only Christ knows how to heal.