~I've been tagged~

Barbie at http://www.praiseyouinthisstorm.blogspot.com/ tagged me~

My 6 weird things list~ Hmmmm

1.) I am scared of heights, no wait, terrified of heights, and yet I love a good roller coaster... weird, I know.

2.) I am scared of the dark, yep, that's right. I know there are such things as monsters in the closet and under the bed, and I am certain that there are boogeymen who will sneak out from behind a tree or from under a car. SCARY

3.) I carry toilet paper in my car at all times. I hate every roll of toilet paper except Charmin. I will go without other things to buy Charmin. I will hold it for hours on end to not have to use cheap toilet paper. Silly, I know~

4.) I must sleep with my socks OFF. I don't know why, but I hate wearing socks to bed. I do not sleep well if I have them on, and usually kick them off if I do happen to fall asleep with them on.

5.) I have never been to Florida. That to me seems weird because it seems everyone I know has been to Florida. NOT ME~

6.) I sometimes leave the light in the bathroom off when I shower. (never when I shave though) What may seem weird to you, relaxing to me. DON'T KNOCK IT TILL YOU TRY IT~

I tag anyone who wants to play along.

Thoughts for the day

I have had a very busy last month.
Today I have reflected, reviewed, and remember the years of the past. Friday is one year since Bill left, by my choice. Next Saturday would be our anniversary and the following Monday is Bill's birthday. Very emotional for me to reflect on and look ahead to.

One year ago

One year ago today, I was fighting.
Fighting ~ for my marriage
Fighting ~ for him to do the right thing
Fighting ~ to be safe
Fighting ~ to save my life
Fighting ~ for my boys to not see the truth of his actions
One year ago today, I was praying
Praying for the Lord to help him see
Praying for the Lord to keep us safe
Praying to the Lord to break him
Praying to the Lord to make him want us
Praying for the Lord to give me strength
One year ago on Friday, I was fighting
Fighting for him to leave
Fighting to keep my house as mine
Fighting for my boys to see His light
One year ago on Friday, the Lord set me free
Free from his drug addiction
Free from his control
Free from his abuse
Free to love my children
Free to have an unconditional relationship with my Lord~

I had a great conversation with my sister-in-law today, she is such and inspiring Christian woman. My heart tells me to do certain things and she sets me on the different, right path and makes me see outside the box of how Bill will perceive my actions. I am so thankful to the Lord for bringing her into our lives.
Jen left me with this verse today

Matthew 7:6
6 Give not that which is holy unto the dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and rend you.

She is wise beyond imagination. Knowing that Bill doesn't know ME, the washed in the blood, saved by His grace, me.

Breathe

Ok, prompted by Barbie, I realize how much time slips by in between my updates.

Here is a brief update and asking for HUGE prayer.

The divorce. Papers were filed on February 14th. That's right, happy heart day to me :(

Husband has gotten the papers and is angry, I have not actually spoken to him, but his wonderful mother can not help herself but to call and communicate his feelings.

I am packing the house and will be moving. Not sure yet, but definitely moving. Staying in the same town, just new place and new start.

Working 50-60 hours a week. We are crazy, busy. OK, go ahead say it, I am just crazy sometimes, I can't disagree. lol

And most important, my best friend, Nancy, has been diagnosed with a very rare cancer. My son Blake and her son Danny have been best friends since we moved to our home town, and are inseparable. Her other son Travis, age 9, is at my house all the time too, as he loves to come and hang with me. He likes to cook so I let him come over and help me out. Nancy and I started being friends because of the kids and have so much in common. We started requesting the boys be on the same teams for sports and car pooled to games and practices. She is a gem. All the kids love her, and she has touched so many lives in her very short 34 years. She has two other children who are 19 and 17 as well. So I am organizing a benefit dinner to raise money to help her with medical bills, household bills, and all of her needs. My heart just aches and I have yet to get a grasp on why. Not for me to question and yet, I just want to know~ The doctors told her yesterday that they do not know what else to do and her time is short. I can not even imagine the conversation that is going to be had with the kids.

So there are the updates of my plate.... fairly full.

Below is a photo of the dynamic duo of Danny and Blake from football in 2004. Seems like just yesterday.

Prayer are needed and appreciated.