Busy Week!

I need lots of prayers right now. I went to see a lawyer this morning in regards to the marriage. This process will take a long time, and I am sure that he will drag it out as long as possible.
On the work front, I love my job! It is going gang busters right now. I am so busy during the day, some days I actually have to force myself to stop and take a breath. But I love that. This is the best company to work for. I have been here 8 months and still in love.
I will post a picture of what I do for this company. I am a project manager and I cooridinate the installation of signage for GameStop all over the country and Puerto Rico. It is fast paced and always exciting.

I hope you all have a great weekend! Hugs to all.

Pictures from Dalton's Birthday!

These are just a few of the pictures. Dalton's best friend Michelle gave him a scooter for his birthday. And the other pictures are of him putting candles on his cake and helping Aunt Jen light the candles.

God's Acceptance

OK! So this may step on some toes, and yet when I heard our Pastor say it, the words were driven to the heart.
God does not accept us just the way we are, He reaches us right where we are. He accepts that when we receive the gift of His Son, Jesus Christ, that we are washed clean of our old wickedness.
2 Corinthians 5:17
17Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

What an awesome thought. He knows all things and loves us anyway. HMMM....
So to end this thought.
1 Timothy 1:12-17
12And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord, who hath enabled me, for that he counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry;
13Who was before a blasphemer, and a persecutor, and injurious: but I obtained mercy, because I did it ignorantly in unbelief.
14And the grace of our Lord was exceeding abundant with faith and love which is in Christ Jesus.
15This is a faithful saying, and worthy of all acceptation, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners; of whom I am chief.
16Howbeit for this cause I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might shew forth all longsuffering, for a pattern to them which should hereafter believe on him to life everlasting.
17Now unto the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only wise God, be honour and glory for ever and ever. Amen.

Dalton's Birthday

Dalton's birthday was yesterday, and we had a blast. Meet Rainbow, his build a bear tabby cat. He loves her, and she is his new best stuffed friend. We had a fun filled week end, and his 7th birthday is one that he will remember for a long time. Now that I take a good look at this picture, I see my flower bed needs some love. One lone little yellow tulip in the background. Ha, that's my black thumb for ya. Anyway, tune in later for a great message about God's acceptance.

Air Force One

Here is a picture of Air Force One when it landed at the South Bend Airport earlier this year. The picture was taken from the front lawn of the company I work for. I was amazed at how enormous the plane was, and loud. You could hear it coming before you ever saw it. I was glad that I got an opportunity to witness this event.

Blessing

Ok, back to God. Look at the beauty that He gives. This is a picture overlooking the South Bend, IN airport from last week. I work across the street from the airport and got to watch Air Force One land not to long ago. I will post some pictures of that in a couple of days. So enjoy the beautiful sunrise.

A moment of emotion

I talked to the husband yesterday. It was the first time I have talked to him since he went to jail, and it was a sneak attack. He called his mom and had her 3 way, and at work non the less. He had the nerve start quoting scripture in regards to our marriage and told me needed to know if I was going to stand by him. AAAAARRRGGGHHHH. I told him that he was in no place to start quoting scripture in regards to our marriage and I was not going to discuss our marriage with him now. He insisted I give him an answer, so I told him that he would not like the answer if he had to have it now. Then he proceeded to ask that I at least be a spiritual support to him.
I will tell you that I pray for him daily. I pray that the Lord let him hit rock bottom, so the only place he has to go is to Jesus.
He said that he did not want me to hate him, I told him I don't hate him. He said that is what scares him is my lack of caring. I am numb to him at this point.
And then he said that he did not want this to hinder my relationship with God. OH MY! I said "Boy, you sure do give yourself alot of credit, don't you! Well, this has only shown me that I need to be closer to Him, and never take my focus off of Him, because He will never leave me or fail me." And I hung up.

Ok! So in my haste came angry words. I have purposely not talked to him, to avoid that. So I am contemplating my next step. Call a laywer, find out! I am not sure. I know that we can't be a part of each others lives anymore. It is not healthy, for me or him and most importantly, the kids. They are the ones who need the shelter from him and his self destruction. He keeps hitting that button and the kids and I always get hit with the fragments from the explosion.

So thanks for bearing with me while I vent! I always feel better when I write things, and soon I hope to be able to write about the last few years of my life. Thanks for being along for the journey and for all the uplifting prayers and comments.

He's Alive

I have to tell all of you, we performed a play at church yesterday, and I actually played the part of a servant woman. I usually avoid the spotlight, so this was a first. The play was awesome, and there were many people in tears, including me. To know the sacrifice that was made, humbling. To act out coming to the tomb to find Him gone, was ......real. I can't put it into words. I cried through out the service and the whole way through communion. I normally try to hide when I cry, not yesterday. I wept at the thought of His blood covering my sin.

Good Friday!

I am not going to ramble on and on today. I am thankful for my Jesus, and His endless love and sacrifice. As I see myself hanging on a cross next to Him, I am ashamed. Ashamed that my sin put Him there, and thankful that His blood washes it clean.

The Truth

What do you claim as truth? I believe the following to be true.

God created all things, man included.
God became flesh, Jesus.
Jesus was born of a virgin, Mary.
Jesus died a crucifiction death.
Jesus rose again.
Jesus is the Savior and the ONLY way to God.
He will come back again.

I believe that there are 66 books of the Bible, no more, no less.

Is my focus in the right place?

My focus is so often on the wrong things. This morning driving to work, worried about what I have to accomplish today, and all the things I have to get done at home (dishes AARRGGHH), a song came on the radio. It made me think about my focus. All things fall into place when I focus on eternity, I stumble when I focus on the world and the things of the world.
I think this song has been out for a while???

Here I Am To Worship

Light of the world
You stepped out into darkness
Opened my eyes, let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with You

CHORUS
Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely,
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love's sake became poor

CHORUS

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

CHORUS
CHORUS

Comforter

What do you call your God today?

I saw this on another blog and it made me think.

King of Kings, Prince of Peace, Comforter, Wonderful Counselor, The Way The Truth and The Life, I AM, Advocate, Living Water, Bread of Life, Savior, Redeemer, The Cornerstone, High Priest, Good Shepherd, Immanual (God with us), Lion of the tribe of Judah, The Light of the World, Healer and Father.

We want Him to be all of these things at the drop of a hat, and He is. He fulfills His promise. I think we forget that for Him to be all these things, there HAS to be trials and tribulation. He is a Savior because we are sinners, He is a healer because we are ill or wounded, He is the Good Shepherd because we are lost, He is a Father because He loves and creates, and He is Comforter because we are out of our comfort zone. And I thank Him for it. How else would I grow and become close to Him by being content with the things of this world. I would have never come to know Him without trials and tribulations. Thank Him today for what He is to you, and thank Him for being Faithful to every promise given.

One of the Lord's promises

This passage called out to me today, and revived me.
New King James
Psalm 34: 11-18
11 Come, you children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
12 Who is the man who desires life, And loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil, And your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Depart from evil and do good; Seek peace and pursue it.
15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, And His ears are open to their cry.
16 The face of the LORD is against those who do evil, To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.
17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears, And delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit.
Lord, I praise you today for all who have shared with me, who have prayed for me, and who have used their lives as a witness to Your grace and rightousness. Thank you Lord for who You are, and what You have done and continue to do for all of Your children. Hold me close to You Lord, as I am broken and in need of my Savior. In Jesus Holy and Precious name, Amen

What are you thankful for?

Today, instead of blogging about my drama, I am going to tell you what I am thankful for and blessed to have.

1. First, my Lord and Savior and the sacrifice he made for me.
2. My three boys, Tyler, Blake, and Dalton.
3. Family, including my sisters in Christ who pray for me diligently. (Thank you)
4. My church and a wonderful Pastor and deacons and their wives and families.
5. Outside and the freedom to see it. I love the outdoors (especially in Spring and Fall).
6. Softball (I play on the church league), it keeps my mind busy and body exercised.
7. Chicken and broccoli with rice. My lunch (good for the diet and easy to make).
8. Bloggers, I have found so much encouragement and uplifting from this free site.
9. My animals, Smores (the fat cat) and Nikita (the lap dog, Rotweiller).
10. My job, that the Lord has graciously provided.
11. The little things that I sometimes overlook, and am now trying to pay more attention to.
12. There are just too many things to list.

Jeremy Camp - Walk By Faith

Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

(chorus)
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me

Help me to win my endless fears
You've been so faithful for all my years
With one breath You make me new
Your grace covers all I do
yeah, yeah , yeah, yeah, yeah, ya
(chorus)

Well I'm broken, but I still see Your face
Well You've spoken, pouring Your words of grace

(chorus x2)
Well hallelujah, hallelu (I will walk by faith)
Well hallelujah, hallelu (I will walk by faith)
I will walk, I will walk, I will walk by faith
I will, I will, I will walk by faith

Today this is my focus. And my prayer, walking faithful to Him and His will.

God is Faithful!

Not to much to say today, this whole situation is sinking in and reality is showing it's face. I am somber and have been and will spend much of the day talking to and praying to the Lord. I am trying not to ask why, and yet still can not wrap my mind around all of this.

So, I am posting pictures of Dalton and his best friend, Michelle. My niece Katie and I took them to the movies on Saturday, and the picture is in the car on the way home. The other picture is my beautiful niece, Katie.

Spiritually refreshed and emotionally drained!

Praise the Lord!

After an exhausting weekend of phone calls from people telling me that Bill had broken into their homes and businesses and stolen their things (to sell for drugs) he is in jail. He can harm no one else and he can not harm himself either. I spent all day yesterday after church at a realty company who we used to do work for, trying to help them catch him. This addiction and the demons that come with it have consumed him and he is not himself. It is a sickness that I don't understand and never will. I know that I am a smarter and more knowledgeable person after living through it. Sad to say, not only did I live through it, I came out victorious. My husband on the other hand, did not. If this is not rock bottom for him, I don't know what is. I am getting off of the train at this stop. I have prayed and wept and prayed and wept, and made the decision. I have stayed in the marriage because I love him, and I took a heavy stand against divorce. I still love him, abuse and drug addiction and pride have destroyed our marriage. For the boys' safety and my well being, I will move on, focusing on the Lord, loving Him, and showing the boys' that He is a true Father, and we must cling to Him.
So calling all moms for advice.
Please pray for my testimony and witnessing through all of this, I want to use all of this for His glory, not my own. God has seen me through this, alive, and I am thankful to Him and His faithfulness to me.