Thursday, June 29, 2006

After thought ....passion


I think I need to rephrase ~ I feel old at 30! There I said it. 30 is most definately NOT old, but I feel old. Life lessons and such, I just feel old. Just in the past 13 years I have overcome more than most people will endure in a life time, and I am tired.
One of my favorite verses in the bible is :
Matthew 11: 28-30
28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

And this was my thoughts on the way to work today.
Passion
Sometimes the fire seems dim, we are exhausted, tired and just plain out of energy. We want to rest. Thank the Lord that Jesus had Passion ~ true unconditional passion. He never lost it NEVER. He knew what had to be done, and carried it out with ferverent passion to His death. What an inspiring role model. Beaten, bloody, abused, harassed, bludgened, and yet still passionate about His mission.
How often do we lose our passion, or just ask to take a break from it because our lives are too busy (with the things of the world). I do it all the time. Just wanting life to slow down, not realizing that Christ first makes all the sense. It is hard to take the steps to put it into action, and yet makes all the sense in the world.
So thoughts???, comments???? Am I crazy???

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Birthday Request


OK ~
Some of you have requested to know when my birthday is!

Let me give you some stats first.

By my birthday this year I will have a 13 yr old, an 11 yr old, and a 7 yr old. I will be 31, married twice, divorced once. I finally own (am in debt for) my first house, and have the best job that I have ever had. I have accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Savior and am striving to spend the rest of my life telling His love story. I have accepted that there is a differnece between real life and fantasy ~ and can tell the difference. By my birthday this year, I will have a grasp on the fact that my oldest is 13 and I should not be old enough to have a 13 yr old child. For my birthday this year, I will make the above pictured cake, because I think it is really cool.

Is thirty supposed to feel this old?

August 18th

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Randoms about me


1. I am almost officially over 30. (I count thirty as not being over) 31 this year...ugghh
2. I have a fear of heights
3. I have never flown, and am about to. YIKES!
4. I love to love.
5. I am picky about how my towels are folded.
6. I love to cook and bake, and have the hips to prove it.
7. I am deeply moved by Christian music, if you pass me in my car and I am crying, now you know why.
8. I forgive because I am forgiven. I always remind myself of this when I am withholding forgiveness.
9. I grew up in a small town where everyone knows your name.
10. I miss my family, deeply, and feel as though I have failed them in many ways.
11. I love to make a child smile, even my own.
12. I will not allow the wrong man to enter the lives of my children - EVER again.
13. I love this number, my oldest son was born on Friday the 13th.
14. I hate that in this blog the letter I was used so much and it should be more in reference to Christ.
15. Starting July 10th (my one year smoke free date) I am going to lose the weight that I gained from the emotional rollercoaster that I have lived the past decade. YEAH~
16. I love Bill's family ~ Can't I just stay married to them?
17. I have to get to work....

Monday, June 26, 2006

After a long exahusting week and weekend


From left to right are some of my nieces and nephews. Betsy, Michael, Daryl (who passed away), Charity, Sarah (she has the best name), and Jonathon. My sister-in-law has six kids, Katie is the only one not shown in this photo, and the spouses of Betsy and Michael are not in the photo either.


Has your weekend ever ended and you thought, wow I need to unwind? Yep, that sums up my weekend.
Emotionally drained~

Funerals just take it out of ya. I am thankful that Daryl is in heaven with the Lord and his suffering is over.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

The crew



Top in the maroon shirt is Blake, red shirt is Tyler, tan shirt is Danny, green shirt is Travis, and blue shirt is Dalton. This is my crew of boys. I love them all the same, and they are all very different and each has a unique personality. I just glow when I see all my boys together, even though I only gave birth to Tyler, Blake and Dalton, I couldn't ask for two better additions than these two.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Scary thought!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Death

Don't really do death well. Not sure why, I know that those who beleive go to heaven with the Lord, and yet I still feel such sorrow. I am thankful that I feel these emotions and that I recognize them and I have enough maturity to give them to Jesus.

John 3:36 He who believes in the Son has everlasting life; and he who does not believe in the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him.

I John 5:13 These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, that you may know that you have eternal life, and that you may continue to believe in the name of the Son of God.

John 5:24 Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life.

I John 3:24 Now he who keeps His commandments abides in Him, and He in him. And by this we know that He abides in us, by the Spirit whom He has given us.

Acts 16:31 So they said, “ Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and you will be saved, you and your household.”

Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates His own love for us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ dies for us.

Hurting Heart

Much of You by Steven Curtis Chapman
How could I stand here
And watch the sun rise
Follow the mountains
Where they touch the sky
Ponder the vastness
And the depths of the sea
And think for a moment
The point of it all was to make much of me
Cause I'm just a whisper
And You are the thunder andI want to make much of You, Jesus
I want to make much of Your love
I want to live today to give You the praise
That You alone are so worthy of

I want to make much of Your mercy
I want to make much of Your cross
I give You my life
Take it and let it be used
To make much of You

And how can I kneel here
And think of the cross
The thorns and the whip and the nails and the spear
The infinite cost
To purchase my pardon
And bear all my shame
To think I have anything worth boasting in except for Your name
Cause I am a sinner
And You are the Savior

I want to make much of You, Jesus
I want to make much of Your love
I want to live today to give You the praise
That You alone are so worthy of
I want to make much of Your mercy
I want to make much of Your cross
I give You my life
Take it and let it be used
To make much of You

This is Your love, oh God
Not to make much of me
But to send Your own son
So that we could make much of You
For all eternity

I want to make much of You Jesus
I want to make much of Your love
I want to live today to give You the praise
That You alone are so worthy of

I want to make much of Your mercy
I want to make much of Your cross
I give You my life
Take it and let it be used
To make much of You
I want to make much of You
Much of You Jesus

Monday, June 19, 2006

Farewell

My beautiful nephew went home to be with the Lord last night. It is his heavenly birthday. My heart is heavy with grief and yet happy that his suffering the battle of cancer is over. Please pray for his wife (my niece) Charity as she has many hard decisions to make over the next few weeks and months. Their love for the Lord and each other was a shining example of the LOVE of God. Please continue to pray for the family as the mourning process has begun and healing and growing in the grace of Christ will start. Thank you again for all the prayer support.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Pictures from the yard



















Look at the beauties that I found in my yard last night. The lily is one that Tyler planted a couple of years back. It is the lone flower on the front of the house and the rose bush, well lets just say - Hats off to my brother who told me to cut it way back last year. I slaughtered it and look at it now. I am going to go get a trellis so it stands beautifully. Who would have thunk that MY BROTHER knows about plants. What a good guy.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Pictures of Tux and Smores



I think my cats love each other!
They sit in the window together and chase each other all over the house, Smores even gives the new kitty a bath!

How Often I Need These Reminders!


Prescribed by the Great Physician
The next time you feel like GOD can't use you, just remember...
- Noah was a drunk
- Abraham was too old
- Isaac was a daydreamer
- Jacob was a liar
- Joseph was abused
- Moses had a stuttering problem
- Gideon was afraid
- Samson was a womanizer
- Rahab was a prostitute
- Jeremiah and Timothy were too young
- David had an affair and was a murderer
- Elijah was suicidal
- Isaiah preached naked (heheheh!)
- Jonah ran from God
- Naomi was a widow
- Job went bankrupt
- Peter denied Christ
- The Disciples fell asleep while praying
- Martha worried about everything
- Mary Magdalene was... well, you know.
- The Samaritan woman was divorced (more than once)
- Zaccheus was too small
- Paul was too religious
- Timothy had an ulcer..
- AND Lazarus was dead!

So what's YOUR excuse?
God can use you to your full potential. Besides you aren't the message, you are just the messenger.
1. God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts.
2. Dear God, I have a problem and it's me!
3. Growing old is inevitable; growing UP is optional.
4. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.
5. Silence is often misinterpreted but never misquoted.
6. Do the math; count your blessings.
7. Faith eliminates panic.
8. Laugh every day, it's like inner jogging.
9. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry.
10. As a child of God, prayer is like calling home everyday.
11. Blessed are the flexible for they shall not be bent out of shape.
12. The most important things in your house are the people.
13 When you get tangled in problems, be still. God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.
14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.
15 He who dies with the most toys is still dead.

The SON is shining and He can certainly use you!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Praying to the porcelin God!

I was out sick yesterday, and I mean sick. I could not get out of bed without throwing up. I think that God was telling me to slow down, so I put the brakes on and stayed at home in bed all day, slept. Still not up to par today, but I am at work. Belly grumbling, and the gut who sits next to me is eating cheese and crackers... how rude!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Proud Mama Edited


The top picture is from left to right is Daniel Bonek, Alex Eager, Jeff Mucha and my son, BLAKE on the right. These pictures are from the awards ceremony at school today.
Blake won awards for Safety Patrol, creating a peaceful school to learn and play, best effort in his class, National Physical Fitness, Student Council Representative, President's Education for Outstanding Academic Excellence, and he won the school spirit award. The last award was chosen by the principal and only one is given each year.
Dalton won the Golden Apple award. One student from each class is selected for this award based off of attitude and efforts and being a role model in school and out of school. The bottom picture is all the children who won. Dalton is in the black shirt in the front row leaning on Nikki Mucha's shoulder.

Edited:
Tyler came home with 2 awards yesterday also. One for being on the honor roll all year with a grade point average between 3.00 and 3.49. And one for doing so well on his MEAP scores. YEAH.
I am so proud of all that they have accomplished and the fact that they do it for God's glory. They have such a grasp on their faith and beliefs. They have survived a lot in the past few years and have proven that trust in the Lord and He will succeed.
So we celebrated last night with a movie - Over the Hedge. It was not the best movie I have ever seen, but it was cute.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

To the tee today!

Jeremy Camp - My Desire

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
You want to be someone laying down your pride
You want to be someone someday
Then lay it all down before the king

You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside
You want to have virtue and purify your mind
You want to be set free today
Then lay it all down before the king

Chorus
This is my desire, this is my return
This is my desire to be used by you

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside
And I know my heart is to feel you near
And I know my life
It's to do your will
It's to do your will

Chorus
2X

All my life I have seen
Where you've taken me
Beyond all I have hoped
And there's more left unseen
There's not much I can do to repay all you've done
So I give my hands to use

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Prayer's needed!

I have a few prayer request today and am asking for those of you who stop by to lift these people up in prayer.

All of these have to do with cancer.

My nephew Daryl, he is in his 40's and has been fighting lung cancer. He was taken to the hospital last Thursday with pnemonia, the doctors have given him one to two weeks to live. He knows the Lord and is in a great deal of pain. My niece, his wife is in her late 20's and is not handling all this well.

Ashli - http://www.heplera.blogspot.com/
She is a friend of my co-worker Holly. She left Indiana to go to California for treatment and has no family out there. Please stop by and leave her some love on her blog.

Kraleigh Grace - http://www.kraleighgrace.com/index.htm
This amazing little girl lost her battle with cancer on Sunday.

Please add this one also:

Loner said...
I added them to my prayer list - please add my daddy - he has lymphoma and it hasn't gone in to remission despite two rounds of chemo - and the doctors aren't offering much hope. His name is Dave. Thanks - Stace

Thank you all for your continued prayers and words of kindness through these past few months. If you have a prayer request please leave me a note, I would love to pray for you and those who mean much to you.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Long Weekend

















We got a new kitty, Tux, this weekend. We went to a graduation party, and got a trampolene (free). I will upload more pictures later. OH, the picture of the bloody nose is from the trampolene. That is Blake, that is Blake's nose from Tyler's shoulder. Ha Ha.

Friday, June 02, 2006

I will Praise You in this Storm!!!

This was the sky on Tuesday night as a nasty storm passed through our area. (I know the date on my camera is wrong). I just thought the sky was great.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Why would you want to?


Read the sign on the side of the wagon.